i'm back on autopilot i guess. feels like i'm throwing away a year of therapy out the window. i might be... or i might be shutting down. trying to make sense of everything that is happening might be too much, so i fall back on old patterns. patterns that helped me in the past. well, i say help, but being on autopilot isn't all that healthy. you forget about friends, your hobbies, your interests and, most importantly, you forget about yourself.
i guess it was bound to happen. there's just too much. or too litle and you're overthinking again.
fuck knows.
you can bounce back though.
you can always bounce back.
take a step back. breathe. pick apart the problems. bit by bit. figure it out.
just do something. break the loop. debug the shit...
where do i wanna go with this? no freaking clue, but i got it out. that's the most important bit.
you got this.