my biggest fear. my fear of heights. i've been wanting to do this for a while now. never had the chance, or rather, i never created the chance.

there's a lot of ifs and whats and what ifs. but i'm doing it. i sure hope i won't break anything. i don't need anything else broken at the moment. ah, who am i kidding, everything is broken.

why am i lying to myself? nothing is broken. you feel determined. i feel determined. remember what you promised yourself when you were drinking drain cleaner? nothing is broken. and even if it breaks, time will heal, you will heal.

you've always sprung back. clawed your way out of everything.

hmmm... writing feels good, i am doing a bit often as it seems.

keep at it.